phew ! phew ! banyaknye habuk . boleh buad bedak . HAHA !

well , dah lama rasanya tak meroyan dalam ni . i think more than one year kot dah tak update apa apa :) bukan apa , takde masa je nak update . so , ni ada masa aku update la apa yang patut . hehehe . sepanjang tahun 2014 aku tak update apa apa . banyak benda yang dah jadi either good or bad . sekarang dah masuk 2015 , apa yang jadi 2014 aku dah lupakan . nak cakap pasal azam , aku takde pape azam kot . just follow the flow and see what happen next . thats it ! :) malas nak cakap banyak sebab tak semuanya akan jadi kan ? so better diam je . hewhew ! sekarang aku still 'tanam anggur' HAHAHA . okay , thats all for today . anything , i'll update later maybe :)

my sister's E-day !

7 julai 2013 satu satunya kakak aku melangsungkan majlis pertunangannya dengan lelaki pilihan hatinya .

majlis tersebut berlangsung dengan jayanya .

berkat bantuan saudara mara and jiran tetangga .

tapi aku tengok kakak aku macam orang dah nak bernikah pulak .

sebab dia buad pelamin bagai , dengan baju siap sewa lagi you allsssssss ! HAHA

yelah , tunang sekali seumur hidup je kan ? 

so , buad la grand grand sikit ! :p

btw , you look so gourgeous my sister !

i liokkeeee ! :D

bertemakan pink + putih !

sebab kakak aku ni die hard fan pink !

pinky pinky gituuuuu ! HAHAHA

baju dia memamg macam orang nak bernikah . HAHA 

silalah tengok gambar gambar tunang dia di bawah yer ! :)

ni la mini pelamin dia . meriah nokkk ! :D

sesi soal bincang tarikh nikah and hantaran bagai .

duduk diam diam dekat pelamin tu dengar orang berbincang . hewhew :D

bakal mak mertua kakak aku . hehehe 

itulah tunang kakak aku ! nama dia abg adlan :)

hantaran dari dua dua belah pihak . . .

sesi photography bersama family ku ! handsome tak abg aku ? HAHAHA

our lovely parents . i love you so much emak and ayah ! :*

kasih jangan pergi ! saya sayang awak sangat :')

Bila ku hanya sesaat bagimu
Jangan biarkan ku terlanjur menyayangmu

Aku tak sanggup jauh darimu
Kerna kau yang membuat aku menyayangmu
Cinta yang ku punya bukan sekadar kata
Cintaku ini abadi untuk mu

Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi
Jangan pernah meninggalkan aku sendiri
Aku tak bisa aku tak sanggup bila sendiri

Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi
Jangan pernah meninggalkan aku sendiri
Aku tak bisa bila kau pergi

Aku tak sanggup jauh darimu
Kerana kau yang membuat aku menyayangmu
Cinta yang ku punya bukan sekadar kata
Cintaku ini abadi untukmu

Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi
Jangan pernah meningggalkan aku sendiri
Aku tak bisa aku tak sanggup bila sendiri

Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi
Jangan pernah meninggalkan aku sendiri
Aku tak bisa bila kau pergi

Kasih jangan jangan jangan jangan kau pergi
Jangan pernah meninggalkan aku sendiri
Aku tak bisa bila kau pergi
Aku tak bisa bila kau pergi
Aku tak bisa bila kau pergi

IBM vs NAR

pejam celik pejam celik , rupa-rupanya dah setahun relation aku dgn dia !

macam tak percaya pulak . HAHA 

tapi itulah realitinya .

even kitorang memang selalu bergaduh , tapi relation kitorang tetap kitorang pertahankan .

no matter how !

makin lama aku rasa sayang aku kat dia makin mendalam .

mungkin dia tak rasa apa yg aku rasa .

aku sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa perasaan aku berubah sampai macam tu sekali .

kadang-kadang aku terfikir , betul ke ape yg aku buad ni ?

entah la , yg diATAS lebih mengetahui segala-galanya :)

aku memang berharap jodoh aku dgn dia .

and aku akan selalu mendoakan yg terbaik buad kitorang :)

masing-masing dah besar , boleh fikir mana baik or buruk kan ?

tapi kadang-kadang tu terkeluar jugak perangai budak-budak tu .

gaduh sebab benda kecik or benda yg tak penting langsung ! HAHA

selalunya yg buad kitorang bergaduh adalah disebabkan 'MUKA BUKU' 

padahal aku dgn dia kenal dari 'MUKA BUKU' jugak .

macam mana tu ? HAHA 

orang kata kalau gaduh sbb fb ni memang macam budak-budak lah !

aku pun fikir macam tu jugak .

tapi nak buad macam mana ?

layankan je perangai si 'DIA'

walau macam mana pun aku tetap sayang dia sampai bila-bila !

and aku tak nak kehilangan dia . 
I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DEAR :*

AFTERLIFE ! ! !

Like walking into a dream, So unlike what you've seen

So unsure but it seems, 'Cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, Just giving you a small taste

Of your afterlife here so stay, You'll be back here soon anyway

I see a distant light, but girl, this can't be right

Such a surreal place to see, So how did this come to be,

 arrived too early?

And when I think of all the places I just don't belong

I've come to grips with life and realize this is going too far

I don't belong here, we gotta move on, dear escape from this afterlife

Cause this time I'm right to move on and on far away from here

A place of hope and no pain, Perfect skies with no rain

Can leave this place but refrain, Cause we've been waiting for you

Fallen into this place, Just giving you a small taste

Of your afterlife here so stay, You'll be back here soon anyway

This peace on earth's not right(With my back against the wall)

No pain or sign of time(I'm much too young to fall)

So out of place don't wanna stay,I feel wrong and that's my sign

I've made up my mind

Give me your hand but realize I just wanna say goodbye

Please understand I have to leave and carry on my own life

I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear escape from this afterlife

Cause this time I'm right to move on and on far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light and I'd hope you might

Take me back inside when the time is right

Loved ones back home all crying cause they're already missing me

I pray by the grace of God that there's somebody listening

Give me a chance to be that person I wanna be

(I am unbroken, I'm choking on this ecstasy)

Oh Lord, I'll try so hard but You gotta let go of me

(Unbreak me, unchain me, I need another chance to live)

I don't belong here, I gotta move on, dear escape from this afterlife

Cause this time I'm right to move on and on far away from here

Got nothing against you and surely I'll miss you

This place full of peace and light and I'd hope you might

Take me back inside when the time is right

DEAR GOD ! :(

A lonely road crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love,

 purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there,

 back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

Dear God,

 the only thing I ask of You

Is to hold her when I'm not around,

 when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her 

and now I wish I'd stayed

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,

 I'm missing you again,

 oh no,

 once again

There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps 

and all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

Dear God,

 the only thing I ask of You

Is to hold her when I'm not around,

 when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

 and now I wish I'd stayed

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,

 I'm missing you again, 

oh no,

 once again

Well, some search never finding a way

Before long they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

 when hope begins to fade . . . 

A lonely road crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love,

 purpose hard to find

Dear God, 

the only thing I ask of You

Is to hold her when I'm not around,

 when I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

 and now I wish I'd stayed

Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired,

 I'm missing you again, 

oh no,

 once again

SO FAR AWAY !

 Never feared for anything

Never shamed but never free

A laugh that healed the broken heart

With all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly

Saw beyond what others see

I tried to heal your broken heart

With all that I could

Will you stay?

Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?

Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned

Place and time always on my mind

I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold

Foolish lies of growing old

It seems we're so invincible

The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request

A perfect chapter laid to rest

Now and then I try to find

A place in my mind

Where you can stay

You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?

Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned

Place and time always on my mind

I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight I'm not afraid (not afraid)

The ones that we love are here with me

Lay away a place for me (place for me)

'Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way

To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?

Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned

Place and time always on my mind

And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay

When I have so much to say and you're so far away

I love you, you were ready, the pain is strong and urges rise

But I'll see you when He let's me

Your pain is gone, your hands untied

So far away

And I need you to know

So far away

And I need you to, need you to know